last few pages

The last few pages of my ‘medical life’ story…

Time flies. lallalalalaaa… I’m finishing medical. 12 days to go..yippie!!! I need to make sure I didn’t make a single mistake in my last few days. Otherwise 1 month extension. no no no no!!

How am i feeling now? Great. It is a hard and complicated posting. But i’ve learnt how to be a good, competent, SAFE doctor in medical posting then in other posting. In medicine everything has a reason. For example, a patient got a temperature spike and you’ll crack your head to find the source ..is it infection? inflammation? antibiotic fever? something is definitely wrong somewhere… the MO will stand next to me during our morning round and ask  ”ur patient is having fever, y huh? tell me.. y? ”  and as usual, i’ll give him this look jeng jeng jeng…

..donno....don't be angry..

I still remember not so long ago where i would be complaining and cursing on how i hate long working hours, sleepless night, the scolding, the pressure, the dying patients, the fussy relatives.. but now i see all of these from a different point of view. These are the like peppers you sprinkle on roast beef. Medicine means nothing without those hardship. The more difficult it is, the sweeter is the end result. The more difficult the case is, the more satisfaction i get in the future. Weird it is, but it’s the truth

Currently i’m taking care of the ICU and the H1N1 isolation ward. Dem the second wave is coming. My patients are getting more and more and everyone is coughing!!! I’m behind the mask all the time. And you know what, I don’t even care to put on my lip gloss or blusher. Pakai pun saper nampak :p hehehehe….

As i’m writing this blog, i feel like i’m more confident then ever to face the rest of my medical career. It’s sad to think that I have another year to wait before i can go back to medical. Not as a HO but as a MO  :). Wish me luck peeps~!

kungfu panda moooood~~~~hiyaaaaaaaaaaaa!

i really2 need to watch kungfu panda.

haven’t had a good laugh in ages!!!

i wanna watch kungfu panda now!! now!!

i marry anyone who give me a big ‘kungfu panda’ teddy bear hehehehehe..

political pressure

medicine is a noble job. the job meant to help people, giving hope, being sincere and equal. but some people don’t understand these. those who are selfish.. think only for their own benefit, and put others aside. These people would do everything they can to make sure their request is fulfil at the expense of others. i am so ashamed to think that i have to bow to their request. dem the politician. don’t use political pressure in medicine. if you demand this and that, go to the private hospital straight away. there are patients who are more ill, critical and need the hospital bed or referral more than you or your love one need. Argh!! geramnyer!!!

i’m back..

hehehe…it looks like this blog is dead.

but here i am!!!

anyway, it’s still raya …. so i would like to take this opportunity to wish selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin to my frens and readers..

Raya 2009

Expect the unexpected

Life is unpredictable. very very unpredictable. Just like a few minutes ago, a good fren of mine is inviting me to his wedding end of this yr. Dem, i can’t even tell he is seeing someone. Need to learn his skill la on how to keep it a secret and drop the news unexpectedly like a bomb! A bit confuse in a beginning but now I’m so happy for  both of them. Finally meeting the right person is such a bliss. Yup that’s for sure. Me? hahaha good question. I dont even wanna talk about it. somehow there’s a single crack in my heart, but dont worry it is not shattered into pieces. Someone should just come with a sellotape and mend the  wound.

Can i go back to UK now and work there? i shouldnt be here anymore. I have made such a rush and immature decision last year. Right now i just wanna lie down on a green grass of a lovely park somewhere in the UK with a cool breeze sweeping over my tired face. Then i shall have a venti latte, hot tuna melt with a slice of blueberry cheese @ Starbuck and sit on their soft comfy sofa the whole afternoon watching people passing by. What an perfect way to soothe a weary soul…

Talking about the unexpected, I had such a bad call yesterday. I can’t even close my eyes. People fall sick and die. For things we think we can control, we can never change Allah’s will. It’s true for joy or sorrow. And behind those, there is always a lesson to be learnt.