my room

my room.

dem i hate my room. my cloths, my oncall bags, my books, my makeups, my stethoscope!, my shoes boxes.. gosh they are everywhere!!!!

argh!! bersepahnyerrr…. sometimes i’m too fed up that i ended up sleeping somewhere else, like in front of the tv for example hehehehe…

i need some motivationlah.. i’ve been saying this to myself day after day ‘tomorrow i’ll tidy up my room’ and yet nothing happen. I’m being lazy lately. toooo lazy. what is wrong with me?????

One word to describe me at the moment.. i’m a MESS!

MJ

Yo~! Michael Jackson (MJ) is dead! I’m not a big fan. In fact I’m not a fan at all. I only like 1 or 2 of his songs when i was a little girl. Anyway, i heard bout his death from the radio on my way to hospital. Fair enough, he was a big star so spreading the news of his demise is acceptable lah. But i just couldnt stand it when every stations keep playing MJ songs which i find ‘x sedap didengar langsung’ esp those with dance/disco type of music. even ERA plays MJ songs! whateverla. A tribute to a king of pop lah katakan..

I have a friend who is a MJ die hard fan.  This lunatic even berangan of going to London to watch MJ last concert. sorry for your lost! i’m sure you’re lying down and listening to MJ songs at the moment

Remember the rumours bout his conversion to Islam? then…did he die as a muslim? i wonder…..

…you’re alone now…

who is that?

in the mist of happiness and craziness.. here i am..standing tall in purrrpleeeee.. hahahaha.. lol i was clueless atas pelamin tu. thank god the picture is blurrrrrr…. was i smiling??

Bridesmaid. I wasn’t prepared to be one. i was just appointed to be one on the spot!

wat???

Finally, my mother asked me the long awaited Q..

Mommy: sepupu akak semua dah nak bertunang, ader yg nak kawin, akak bile ni?

Me: ??????? (terpinga2…)???? wat??? apsal plak tetiba tanya? BF xde la mak. mak cari kan lah

Mommy: apsal mak yg kene cari, akak yg nak kawen, akak la cari sendiri

Me: x reti la

Mommy: apsal x reti pulak? cari jela. kawan kan ramai

Me: x reti .. mak cari kanlah..

Mommy: hari tu.. yang pilot tu ape cerita?

Me: ??? ^%(*%$%*??? .. tu kawan la.

Mommy: kawan aje? huh..buang masa. kawan dgn org yg betul2 la…

Me: la.. mana bley camtu..akak kawan dgn semua org… mane bley pilih2..

Mommy: x serious x yah kawan.

Me: kalau mcm tu akak xde kawan la

Dem. I thought i can handle it. The truth is, i am VERY uncomfortable with this issue Donno why. When i take a moment and think about my life, i can exactly point it out where it started to go wrong. I admit my friends are limited, i rarely socializing with frens or seeing new people. Hmm maybe these are the reason y i dont have any special guy. I don’t pity myself. But now i pity my parents. They are hoping for someone apparently. But i can only say, there is NO ONE at the moment. Anyone wanna be a candidate??

Now i am thinking bout advertising myself in the love-marriage catalog / magazine la hahahaha… I’m losing my mind here.

For God sake I’m just 26!

huh..my depression has just doubled

low

i’m bored. extremely bored. it’s not fair if i say i hate my life. i live a better life than some people. at least money is not a problem for me. some people wake up in the morning without a cent in their pocket. The truth is i just hate routine. same things repeated over and over again. yeah.. i’m depressed.

my high and low this week?

low = everything

high = nothing

I wanna laugh..

make me laugh..

sadly, no one can